I'm pretty sure we've all had that moment in our life when something happens to change it drastically. For me personally, I've had quite a few of those moments. Whether it be the "I wonder what would have happened if..." or "why is this happening to me?" scenarios or something completely different, we have to make a decision. We can either accept the lost opportunity or we can pursue something head on.
Some scenarios in my life:
Getting married at age 20, then to be divorced at 22.
Pursuing education
Changing college majors
Forgoing the chance at pursuing FBI work
and most currently, do I try and pursue the "one that got away"...
I am at a point in my life where I am healthy mentally. I am pursuing my dreams of getting my graduate degree. I have an amazing 5-year-old daughter and family scattered around town. I have a great life. For the past few years, it has felt like something is missing. I miss companionship. I miss having someone to tell how good or bad my day was, followed by a nice comforting hug. I miss having someone to argue about what we should eat for dinner. I miss having someone to help me find my self-worth and confidence, while also gaining strength and being true to myself.
I recently connected with an old friend from high school that I was close friends with. At the time, he was a couple years younger than me and we were both experiencing that somewhat awkward high school stage. We went to my senior homecoming together as friends and we had a great time. Fast forward a few years after high school: I was married, had a child, and had been through divorce and am now pursuing grad school and being a mom. He joined the military, moved away, got married, matured quite a bit, and had also experienced a divorce. It happened by chance that we reconnected really. A song that we used to sing along to together had come on the radio and he had reached out to me and let me know. We continued our conversation and spent time catching up with one another. I am now reminded again of what a genuine, caring, and respectful person that he is and how lucky I am to have him in my life.
This is where the pivotal moment comes in. I enjoy his friendship, encouragement, and honest conversation. Circumstances prevent either one of us from actually living near each other (due to current responsibilities in our lives), but we are making plans for a visit. Being one to want to control every aspect of my life, this is a tough situation for me to be in. I want to preserve our friendship regardless of what the future holds, but also have the curiosity to wonder what if or what would have happened if our circumstances had been different. I am torn between my tendencies of wanting everything perfect and trying to be a little spontaneous. Life doesn't always give us these interest moments, but that's the fun of it... to just explore them and enjoy the ride.
Some scenarios in my life:
Getting married at age 20, then to be divorced at 22.
Pursuing education
Changing college majors
Forgoing the chance at pursuing FBI work
and most currently, do I try and pursue the "one that got away"...
I am at a point in my life where I am healthy mentally. I am pursuing my dreams of getting my graduate degree. I have an amazing 5-year-old daughter and family scattered around town. I have a great life. For the past few years, it has felt like something is missing. I miss companionship. I miss having someone to tell how good or bad my day was, followed by a nice comforting hug. I miss having someone to argue about what we should eat for dinner. I miss having someone to help me find my self-worth and confidence, while also gaining strength and being true to myself.
I recently connected with an old friend from high school that I was close friends with. At the time, he was a couple years younger than me and we were both experiencing that somewhat awkward high school stage. We went to my senior homecoming together as friends and we had a great time. Fast forward a few years after high school: I was married, had a child, and had been through divorce and am now pursuing grad school and being a mom. He joined the military, moved away, got married, matured quite a bit, and had also experienced a divorce. It happened by chance that we reconnected really. A song that we used to sing along to together had come on the radio and he had reached out to me and let me know. We continued our conversation and spent time catching up with one another. I am now reminded again of what a genuine, caring, and respectful person that he is and how lucky I am to have him in my life.
This is where the pivotal moment comes in. I enjoy his friendship, encouragement, and honest conversation. Circumstances prevent either one of us from actually living near each other (due to current responsibilities in our lives), but we are making plans for a visit. Being one to want to control every aspect of my life, this is a tough situation for me to be in. I want to preserve our friendship regardless of what the future holds, but also have the curiosity to wonder what if or what would have happened if our circumstances had been different. I am torn between my tendencies of wanting everything perfect and trying to be a little spontaneous. Life doesn't always give us these interest moments, but that's the fun of it... to just explore them and enjoy the ride.